困りました！買いますか？買いませんか？教えてください！

hai, feel just like my title suggests. To buy or not to buy? I really cannot decide. To those whom, after reading my blog, have the opinion that, "okie leh, rich lor, trying to flaunt your money getting troubled over what to buy while people worry over how to make end meet.", I have only one word for you, Sucker. Yes. I've had enough of like everytime i tell people that there is something that i want to buy, and that something, in their opinion, is quite expensive, they'll always give me the look like...wah, rich lor, can afford such stuff, dun have to show-off one. Hello!!!!???? WHats your bloody problem? Let me clarify this. Firstly, I'm not rich. My father dun earn 5 figure salaries. But we save alot. We only buy what we need to and not spend on the other things. We'll only go to a restuarant when there's a promotion or it's one of my family member's birthday. Secondly, when i buy something, i think it over twice, thrice or even a month before deciding on buying it. And i use my own savings that i've accumulated since young and also from vacation jobs. So stop saying that I'm trying to flaunt my wealth(coz i dun have any)... I save up when i want something...I dun have rich parents. And when i buy something, I sacifice buying other stuff. I will also reconsider if the item has resale value before buying. So hello? I'm the same as everyone else.

Phew....after letting out all those bottled up frustrations, feel alot better. Anyway, If you still remember an earlier post about gothic lolita dresses, yup, I'm brooding over the same subject again. To buy or not to buy. Actually dun have to buy so early but because I want to wear it to the end-of-year cosplay event, have to start preparing now as the shoes will need time to manufacture and things like that. I have calculated. The whole budget would be a whooping S$300! This is such a big sum of money for a dress that u can only wear to specific events and not everyday. And having just gone to Genting, (there was a promotion buy 1 night free 1 night, so dun think we are rich...why do i always have to clarify...bloody hell!) on a promotion of ...just see above...the travel and accomodation expenses totals up to be about $300+ for 5 pax. So buying the dress will be equivalent to a trip to Genting...Arghh..I'm so troubled! I hate my character. I think too much and too deeply abt trivial things. ANd it has affected my schoolwork. I was up till 3 am las night just sourcing for potential lolita dresses and shoes to buy....was supposed to get up at 8am today to do my work but couldnt...my life's a mess! And i'm starting to get paranoid over the approaching exams, and also interviews from the accounting firms, not that i have secured any, but I'll have to start planning that....

Still thinking of whther to buy or not to buy....i feel like just go into the shop, grab the dress slam down the money and what the heck. But there are too many financial burdens now to consider that i still cannot buck up the courage to just spend the money. I tried convincing myself that i can just wear the dress one time and then try to sell it. But i think most pple buy first hand. Fainting.

-大変困りました！－